my7thlife

Wow. How long has it been since I updated my Multiply? I'm guessing.. ages? LOL. I just find Multiply not very user-friendly. Hasn't got the features that I really want, methinks. Nothing more than that.

Anyway. For those who haven't been up-to-date with what's going on from my main blog, MY7THLIFE.NET, my dad passed away on the 22nd of May, which was barely three weeks ago. I told myself it would be a fabulous month, what with the coming of birthdays and, well, the fact that it was just going to be a simply amazing month. I didn't expect that the month would end on the night of the 22nd. Sigh.

But I've moved on. I'd like to think so. I've had a couple of posts on my main blog, talking about how I'm doing. I'm a bit scared to let people know that I haven't actually quite moved on. I ask myself, "What if they get bored with it?" I try to tell myself that I have accepted it and moved on in my life, but I still cry to myself every night. It's hard when you're really, really tight-knit with your family.

It's crazy, you know?

Things with the other half haven't been going so well either. Funny, the two most important men in my whole life, the two whom I love with all of my heart, are not here. One's gone permanently, and the other.. I don't know where he's gone. I don't exactly know what's going on with that side of my life.

..the new layout. It's the same person who designed the last one I used. I think she's really talented. She produces nice, clean, mod-ish layouts. Which I like. The only thing that I don't like is the animation when you hover over the links in the page.

[For more posts and updates, click here.]

To myself and my classmates, and also to those final year students of ITB who passed and got their HND! We're HND holders now! Kick those A levels to the side and lo and behold, Higher National Diploma.

(Was initially disappointed with results, but okay with it now. You can read my initial post on how I felt earlier yesterday.)
Up next: BSc in Multimedia Technology and Design. InshaAllah.

Missed me on MY7THLIFE.NET? In case you do, visit seventh.wordpress.com for updates!

Nothing much at the moment, but hey, I'll try to get MY7THLIFE.NET back up again.

Pay is out!

I would've texted you guys, but my phone acted up, and I had to restart it, and lost most of your contact numbers. Actually, I think I lost all of your numbers.



Have fun with the cash, and remember, I'm free by December 6th!

MY7THLIFE.NET is back up, so expect updates from there.

Boo. I don't like you.

Interested? Only if you feel like you're a girl. ;)

Sometimes I am very aggravated at people who just don't seem to listen. It takes them to watch those people on TV, listen to those people on the radio, read up on those people on websites to make them listen. When a friend truly tells them something, the very same thing that those other people told them, they never seem to listen to you. They think you're a know-it-all. They never say, "Eh, banar jua cakap si Tina atu ah." They never appreciate you. Well, hey, you know what? I told you THAT ages ago, and now you realize how true it is. NOW you want to say what you are saying. Isn't it too late, dearie?

I don't give advice to people, I just give them my honest opinion and I'll share with them how I would tackle that problem if I were them. And seriously lah ah.. I'm never ever going to do that again, unless it's to people who are worthy of it. That is, people who are willing to listen.

I'm quite a joker, but when it comes to my religion, and what I'm willing to share with you.. the least you can do is listen. I'm not asking for much. Just gratitude towards Allah that he opened my heart to share it with you.

Astaghfirullahalazim. Baru balik terawih sudah marah-marah.

I'll update again soon. And, inshaAllah, tomorrow, my weblog will be back up. If not, the day after that.

Before I start on anything else, I want to say.. Happy 21st birthday to Yusrina! (Whom I have texted, and she still uses that number! Yippee!) I hope that she will have the happiest of times today. xoxo, Yus! :D

Anyway, just got home from work about an hour ago, and had a real good talk with a colleague during song breaks. I have to say, I got quite a good slap of reality.. and realize my mistakes.

I'm going to try and fix it soon, but for now, I need to reorganize my thoughts and words.. We'll see how it goes. Just pray that things'll go well. (Amin.)

On another (birthday) note, happy birthday to Shim! (Unsure on how old she is, but she could be either 22 or 23.) Many happy returns to you, dearest Shimmy, and hope we all pass with distinctions under our belt. (See you in London! [Private joke.])

As predicted, my website domain is down. But I already paid off my credit card bills, so that prediction expired around a week ago. I don't know what the problem now is.. but maybe it's not sufficient? Oh, that will suck. Then again, not that I have been updating for the past week.

I've been really busy, I don't know how many times I have said that to people and on my blog posts. I really have. I've been drowning in the final year project, trying to make that upload image feature work. But it never does. Three fasting days working on it, 12 hours and counting.. it still doesn't work. To make things worse, IIS couldn't be installed on my laptop, so I can't do all the coding at home and I have to borrow my group mate's laptop to get things going.

Ramadhan, and the fact that I'm fasting, isn't bothering me. In fact, it's much more easier to work this way. No lunch breaks to worry about, no rumbling tummies to tend to.. well, there have been incidents where my stomach was growling like mad, but I really didn't have to tend to it as it's natural to have an empty stomach. (D'oh.)

What's bothering me, on the other hand, is how people are treating me these days. I thought things couldn't get any worse, but when my other half couldn't understand what I was going through, I broke down. Yes, I was a sobbing mess for two whole hours before putting myself to sleep at 7AM, just to wake up at 11AM for another group meeting on the final year project.

It wasn't so much how he didn't understand that made me have a breakdown, but it was how everything else was getting to me. I was containing it.. and I talked about it to my friends and colleagues a bit, but my defenses just gave way and I could hear myself sobbing for no apparent reason.

Fortunately, this month has been really good on me in spiritual ways.. I've been going for terawih prayers, and they have been helping me out a lot. Focusing on Allah, and not the worldly things really do help. The bad news is, there isn't much time left of Ramadhan. I'm going to miss it. Furthermore, I'm wasting so much time on school and work, I don't have any other time for anything else.

I never thought I'd ever have a busy schedule (ever), but now I do. And the exams are just around the corner. (November 16th!)

It sucks to be me at the moment, but this is going to be over before I know it. (I hope.) I also hope that my domain will be back up soon. It's just really nice to see people dropping by, and leaving comments.

Sometimes I wonder why I bother having a Multiply account. I don't even do anything with it. Sure, whenever I get bored, I upload songs and pictures.. but that's just about it. I don't know why I need a Multiply account when I have my own weblog that I pay for every month. (Yes, that was a shameless plug.)

Friendster doesn't count, really, I guess because that it was there ages ago and it's a bit user-friendly than some other websites that provide attention for those who are deprived of it.

Whatever. I'm rambling.

What's cool now is the fact that we can use "professionally-made" themes by Multiply. No need to change my account to gold or platinum then. ;)

I need to go off and meet up with my team mates for school for our final year project.

Busy, busy me. (Right.)

I'm now going through quite a rough patch in life.. Nothing too bumpy.. just a little coarse.

I don't know what I'm going to do with my future.. it scares the heck out of me.. and.. I just wish there was more I can do to it. But I know I can't.. and that scares me.

Enough on that, I just realized that people don't visit my Multiply homepage.. So maybe I can bitch about several people here or something.

Not.